I wanted from the minute I decided to work for myself to be in a serious relationship. As in, I wanted to already be heavily involved with someone once I started working for myself, because in my mind I figured it would be hard to build a business and build love.
I was right and I was wrong.
It would be hard. It IS hard. BUT I underestimated just how hard it would be. I Underestimated the mental drain that would come at the end of each and every day. Underestimated the mountaintops that would be apart of my successes and the deepest darkest valleys I would stroll each time I failed. I underestimated how priceless a hug and sometimes a simple touch would become. I underestimated the sheer joy my heart would feel every time a client squealed with joy when their clothes fit perfectly. I didn’t even count how many times I would have to push creativity aside in the name of business.
It is so easy to accept less than what we want and deserve. Nah let me speak for myself. It has become so easy to accept less than the love I want and I deserve especially at the end of those days where all you want is to be touched. It becomes easy to slip into the very holes and nooks and crannies you swore off of in the first place when all you need is some affection from another human being. Next thing you know you’re stuck between the IthinkIlikehim rocks and the Ifeelsoused hard places.
Personally, I carry guilt from not being able to talk/ text for long periods everyday, not being able to spend crazy amounts of time with the other person, not being ridiculously tired when we do spend time and the list goes on.
What I know for sure though is that we all want love.
I also know that nothing is impossible.
I KNOW that in this life of love and entrepreneurship, we can’t wait for time to make the space for us to be with the people we love, we have to MAKE the time. We have to make the sacrifice. Just as we build the lives and businesses and careers we want, we must also build the love that we want.
It’s that easy and it’s that difficult.
Peace and Blessings.